Life


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Life has been a roller coaster lately and I am so ready for it to be over with this ride. I think a lot of it has to do with me personally, mainly with my depression. I’ve been on the same meds for like 4 months now and it’s actually working with no side effects unlike the last one. Well, it works when it wants to, I still have my down days which makes life dull and boring and it pisses people off, cause all I wanna do is sleep and veg out on the couch.

I’ve actually been going to counseling *gasp* I’ve actually stuck with it as well. I’ve been going for a few months now. After my first visit, I sat down and wrote out a lot of stuff that had happened to me thru the years, it was a total of 5 pages lol. It took a few visits to counseling but we worked thru all the things. It felt good getting that stuff out and talking to someone non-related about the stuff I went thru. However, I still feel like crud when I go to counseling. I’ll lie to my counselor and tell him things are okay when in reality, I just wanna give up on life. I’m not sure why I lie to him about it but I do, I’m not sure what to do anymore.

I’m having more days where I feel as if I am just a waste of space, like no one truly cares about me, it’s all talk to just make me feel better. I try to talk to “friends” and it’s like I’m just wasting their time, cause I’m not talking about what they wanna talk about. I feel like I have no one I can turn to and talk to, when I know I at least have my counselor but I think I’m afraid of getting judged, like I always have in life. So as usual, I go to my music to try and calm me down. I’m just sick of feeling this way, next week I go to the doctors, maybe my meds need an adjustment or something, or just need to talk to someone about my problems. However, not always when I talk does it make life better, the problems are still there waiting for me as soon as I leave the counseling building.

Maybe moving away from family is what I need, this way I can clear my head and not worry or hear about my families problems, cause I don’t care but they manage to still bother me, go figure. I just wanna be happy and live my life the way I want to and where I want to, but that’ll never f**king happen!

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Salt City Comic Con 2018


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Booth set up

For my 2nd year we attended Salt City Comic Con in Syracuse, NY as a vendor. Of course I was still working on stuff until just a few days before we left. We left out on Friday 07.06.2018 to head to Syracuse, this year we were going to stay at the hotel it was being hosted at, Embassy Suites Hilton. It was very pricey to stay there but was so worth every penny we put into it!! Our friend Crissy even drove all the way up from PA to hang out and spend the weekend with us!!

So, Friday we arrive in Syracuse and relaxed for a bit, then we went to get out badges and found out they were still trying to figure out how the layout was going to be for the outside vendors. We decided to head down to the pool for the Pikachu pool party, omg it was so much fun and Trent had a blast. Only complain was the water was salt water instead of chlorine.

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Few hours later we got everything taken care of and got our booth location. We were just going to set up the canopy, tables and the wire shelves, however, after we get the canopy and tables set up, I realized I forgot my wire shelves back at home which is about 2.5 hours away, so there was no going back for them. So we ran to the local Walmart and they didn’t have any, found out a Kmart did but was already closed.

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Saturday morning, we get up showered and dressed and decided to head down to the free breakfast. It was delicious and got to watch classic cartoons like Ghostbusters & Transformers. There was also cosplayers hanging out with everyone doing pictures. Trent was so excited he wanted his picture with Batman. After breakfast we quickly ran over to Kmart and got my wire shelves, go back and finish setting up. We had to be set up and ready to go by 10am for the VIPs to come thru, and we managed to do so. For Saturday we did really good, sold a bunch of stuff and there was always a crowd of people going thru, what helped was we had the food trucks in the area we were in.

We got free bowling passes so myself, Dave & Crissy went out and had an adult time just hanging out bowling, Trent stayed with his Gigi at the hotel. After bowling we decided to hit up the arcade, that was a lot of fun! Then, went to a shop and I bought my first manga and can’t wait to start reading it. We came back to the hotel and had a few drinks, well I had soda cause I don’t drink but it was still a nice time. I’ve never actually hung out like that before and it was quite relaxing and can’t wait to do it again sometime.

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Trent with his aunt Crissy

Sunday morning we get up and get stuff packed so we can sign out. We got up a bit too early and got ready too early so while myself and Dave was out setting up for convention, Trent & his Gigi hung out and went swimming. Then came time to sign out, after we did, Trent & his Gigi went to the zoo nearby. Boy, Trent had a good ol’ time at the zoo and took lots of pictures. For the convention, it was a much slower day for us, we barely had people coming into our booth. What hurt us was they took the food trucks out of the area we were in and put them outside so people didn’t have to come in. Them doing that hurt a lot of the vendors that was outside with us. I was lucky to have sold maybe 10 things from 10am – 5pm, it was that bad.

Overall, the convention wasn’t too bad, most vendors were inside and only a few outside. Like I mentioned Saturday was great for us, but come Sunday as usual it’s super slow and barely make anything. I love doing these conventions but I’m so tired of being disappointed because I’m not making much at them. So I think for right now I’m going to take a break and maybe see about getting into the local events if possible.

Last Day of School


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That’s right folks, Trent’s last day of school has already arrived! I now will have a 4th grader next school year and also he moves up to the middle school. Hard to believe he’s going into the middle school. He has also decided to take band, he’s going to be playing the clarinet. In order to get practice in before school starts he has to take band lessons during the summer. Let’s hope summer break goes quick, because I know it’s going to be a long one with him being out of school!

Who is who?


I first started this blog back in May 2011, back then I was still kind of a new mommy, my son was only going on 2 years old. So when I started this I wouldn’t use peoples names, I’m not sure why, maybe I was afraid of people knowing my sons actual name or something.

But now 6 years later, you get so used to calling your child by their name but when you go to blog you have to not type their name, along with your fiance name. So I think from now on I will start using actual names. I’m not afraid of people knowing our names anymore. Plus if I get too worried again (which probably won’t happen) I can always go back thru and delete this post and edit the names again lol.

So for introductions, I’m know on here as mom, mommy, mumma whichever I usually use lol but my actual name is Kristen. My fiance is known on here D, his actual name is Dave. My son is known as T, his actual name is Trent, I bet some of you didn’t figure that one out cause it is but isn’t a popular name.

So there ya have it, our actual names, now you can continue on with your day lol

Summer Enrichment Program


This summer T was able to attend our schools summer enrichment program. They allowed any child to join but there was a limit amount they could accept, so we got our application in right away, best part was it was all free to the parents.

Each week was a different subject, it was a 4 week program and each week they would attend a field trip based on what the subject was that week. Of course T wanted me to go with him on each trip, which the school encouraged the parents to come along (which most of the trips I was the only parent). It was really fun going on the trips with T, the only part I didn’t like was being cramped on a small bus with like 17 kids lol, but it was still fun and T was so excited when I came along ❤

Week 1: Book Making

This week he learned about the different ways you can make a book. Each day he brought home a different mini book he had made in class. This weeks field trip was to Western New York Book Arts Center in Buffalo, NY. This was a long drive on a bus, over an hour and of course we hit grid lock so that took forever. Once we got there they showed the kids how to use a printing press and stuff. All the kiddos had a blast, T thought it was really cool that him & everyone got to use the old printing press to make a poster they all got to take home.

 

Week 2: Clay Work (can’t remember actual title)

This week the kids in this group learned different clay work techniques. T brought home a clay magnet & then another type of clay that glows in the dark which was pretty cool. This weeks field trip was to Brushstrokes Studios right here in town, which is literally down the street from us. The kids got to pick one ceramic to paint, and then 2 weeks later was able to bring it home. The kids all had a blast, it was fun seeing all the different colors the kids were painting their ceramics. This was T’s first time to the studio & he had a blast, he’s now hooked on going there lol.

 

Week 3: Change

This week was learning about history dealing with dinosaurs & science. It was an interesting week hearing all the stuff he had learned. This weeks field trip was to the Buffalo Museum of Science in Buffalo, NY. OMG this place was amazing!! All the kids had fun & I even had a good time, sadly we didn’t have enough time to explore all of the museum but what we did see was amazing. My group of kids was T & 3 of his friends, they were all just having way too much fun. When we got home both me & T told D how much fun it was and that we need to take a trip there again.

 

 

Week 4: Teamwork (or something like that lol)

This week the kids learned about working together as a team. This weeks field trip was to a YMCA camp where the kids go to try out the rock climbing wall. I didn’t attend this due to being sick but my mother went instead. T was nervous at first but put on his harness, he started to try the wall but as soon as they lifted him off the ground I guess he freaked out so he didn’t do it, but its okay at least he tried ❤

 

This summer program was pretty awesome and I am glad my son was able to participate in the program. We’re hoping the have this again next year & he is able to go again.

OMG your 8 years old?!


That’s right, if you’ve been a follower for a few years T has turned 8 years old!! Man does time fly when you have a child. He is growing up way too fast, but I’m one lucky mumma to have him as my son. Yes he can be a handful what kid isn’t but I wouldn’t change anything about him. T is a unique little boy young man and I love that about him, he doesn’t try to be like everyone else ❤

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This year we had a little party at our place, it was family and friends that came to his party. One of our best friends came all the way up from Pennsylvania for the weekend. T was so excited to see who all came to his party and was excited about his cousins being there. It wasn’t a fancy party just a big ol’ get together to celebrate T’s birthday, but it made T’s day, so that’s all that matters. Later in the day we decided to have a little fire and make some s’mores, but by then most of the people already left, but oh well T was still having a good time. I’m just glad his birthday party was a success and that he had a great time on his birthday ❤