PLEASE DON’T READ WITH KIDS AROUND!!!
Yeah you read that right and its true. Anymore I get jealous when I hear of a family member or friend is pregnant. I started being this way since T turned 1 and he is now going to be 3 in July. We have been trying to conceive for another child since a little before T turned 1 and having no luck. Yes I am overweight but that doesn’t mean a thing. The doctor goes and tells me well you need to lose 10% of our body weight so for me that would be 30lbs, well lets see when I conceived for T I was bigger then I am now, go figure. I was 360ish when I found out I was 6wks pregnant for T, and when I had him 4 days overdue I was weighing in at 380ish, and now I weigh in at 338 and still can’t conceive another child. I hate my body so much I wish I just trade this body in for a new one. I was told when I was 16 that I have PCOS and because of it, it makes it harder to try and conceive for a child. This one doctor I go to I am starting to really hate, all she says is just lose the weight and keep having sex, one problem with that part is for some reason I don’t want it. HA if it was only that easy. I haven’t had aunty flo since September 2011 and taken test and all came back neg so I am not pregnant and the doctor will just go and prescribe me a med to get my flo going and just a month later I won’t have anything again. So that means going on birth control and I really don’t want to cause then you can’t get pregnant (well you can just very slim chance). I am just at my wits ends and want to just SCREAM!!! Every time I hear someone say “I’m pregnant” or “we just had a child” I just get very depressed and start to tear up. I just hate it and I get so jealous of when I hear all this. I have family and friends that are pregnant and an aunt by marriage that just had her 3rd child.
I just don’t know what to do anymore, anyone ever feel like this or am I just a crazy/weird women????