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What happened?


What happened to how things used to be? Yes we all have to grow up but does that mean life has to become complicated and you give up on things you used to enjoy doing like hobbies?

Growing up I didn’t really like doing much, I stayed home and had absolutely no life. As I got older like 16 (2003) I started to write poems & short stories, also sometimes I would do some drawing. As I got little bit older around 20 (2007) I for some reason just stopped, more like around 2008 is when I stopped. Occasionally I would do some drawing but not worth showing anyone. Then in 2012 I started up sewing, I hadn’t sewn anything since I was in middle school.

I had fun sewing stuff, but as usual I’m just bored with sewing, which is not good because that’s part of my business 😦 The whole not sewing thing I think is because I just got worn out, always having family want me to make them stuff (I have a problem saying no) then trying to make stuff for the shop & some of it not selling. Then on top of all that I was doing a lot of sewing for gaming conventions, I think last years convention is what really caused me to not want to sew anymore. I was severely disappointed with how that weekend went, I had made so much stuff & barely sold anything, I’m lucky if I sold 1/4 of what I brought.

Crocheting is another thing I enjoyed doing, but I am slowly getting bored with it. Like there’s so much I’d love to crochet but then I get it in my mind that I don’t need to because it will be just a cluster added to the rest of the cluster in my house.

Heck I used to blog a lot but anymore I don’t keep up with it, I just run out of things to type about. 😦

So I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m trying to enjoy the hobbies I love but I just can’t seem to & my sewing stuff alone takes up a lot of room & I feel horrible cause I have it all set up but feel bleh when it comes to sewing. I miss writing but can’t ever think of anything to write. AHHHH why does it have to be like this? How the hell do I get out of this funk?!

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Me being silly


Today I had the house to myself for about an hour & decided to take some selfies. I was and still feeling good about myself, so I put on some eye liner & my eyebrow ring and did some photos. Taking these photos helps me with my self esteem issues. I always see ugly in myself but today I didn’t feel like that, I felt pretty good. Some people may not be able to understand what I mean but there are few who can relate. I need to have more days like this but life isn’t that nice lol. 
So enjoy my photos below, some may like them, some may hate, some may wtf and other stuff. But to be honest I don’t give a rats ass. I had fun and I like them, which is all that matters. 


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Great Grandparents 


I grew up around my great grandparents, but unfortunately died years before I had T. I wish they were alive to meet him because they would just love him so much. But thankfully T gets to be around his great grandparents has a child. He is the 1st great grandson so he gets quite spoiled by them. T loves them so much and thinks it’s awesome when he gets to spend the night at their house. 
This picture is from the Christmas party that was at the VFW that Ts great grandpa signed him up for. I told them.before we left that I wanted a photo of them. I honestly don’t have many of the 3 of them, and if anything was to ever happen we’ll always have our memories & photos. It’s always fun seeing T spend time with them & it does them good to, to have someone like T around. 

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Watching Christmas Movies 


So we are currently watching The Polar Express & T is sitting on the couch glued to the movie while wearing his Finn the Human hat. I just giggled because it’s just too funny. This is one of the many reasons why I love my son, especially when he does silly things like this . 
Does your little ones or did your children do this? Having to wear certain things while watching a movie at home? 

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Thanksgiving 2016


For this year we had Thanksgiving at our house, but it was only myself, D, T, my ma & my brother. The rest of the family had a dinner the week before without us because A) there was people there that if I showed up my mouth would run & possible fight would happen B) well that’s kind of personal. But the whole family agreed to do Thanksgiving like that this year, but Christmas I guess we might be getting together who knows, this family is a bag full of crazies.

My brother checking out my 3DS xl
My brother checking out my 3DS xl, of course T is right there next to him

My brother came out hours before dinner & T was so excited to see his uncle. My brother was having fun checking out my 3DS, then got all excited because I said we had a 3 in 1 that has Nintendo, Super Nintendo & Sega in it, so we dug that out with the game cartridges & boy it felt we were kids again playing the games.

Nothing fancy looking but man the food was yummy
Nothing fancy looking but man the food was yummy

D cooked Thanksgiving dinner & it came out pretty good 🙂 Of course T had to show his ass & take forever eating but he did manage to eat his food. Then we just all sat & had a good time. Overall, Thanksgiving this year was good, no listening to who do this & that, who is in more pain, so on & so on.

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RetroGameCon 2016 Recap!


Giant greeting sign (1/2) that was like right above/in front of us
Giant greeting sign (1/2) that was like right above/in front of us

This years RetroGameCon was a two day event, November 5th & 6th. We were excited about attending this year again as artists. This years convention was held at the OnCenter in Syracuse, NY and boy is that place HUGE!!! As mentioned we were excited but as we left on day 2 I personally wasn’t happy.

Day 1 table set up
Day 1 table set up

Day 1 we got there early like told to & got all set up for the day. We were located in a not so good spot, our table was surrounded by mainly vendors who sold video games & stuff, so at first we thought man this would be great, but in reality it hurt my business, drastically. We had a lot of people who would start walking to our table then immediately get pulled to the tables next to us because they were selling games.

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Besides from bad location, we did have fun seeing all the cosplay, there were a lot of amazing ones & of course some that made you shake your head. There was this one guy who was wearing one of those inflatable dino costumes & was doing Dance Dance Revolution, boy that was funny as fuck to watch. There was just a lot of cosplay that was simply awesome!

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Day 2 set up

Day 2 we set up, made the table look a bit better (I thought it did) and waited for the convention to start. We had hopes that it would be an even better day because admission was only $10/person, but boy we were wrong. I think everyone suffered on day 2, because not many people showed up.

Tamaki!!!
Tamaki!!!

I think the only good thing that came out of day 2 was a certain cosplayer, when we arrived I seen the person & I knew who it was but part of me wasn’t sure. I asked D to go over and ask because I was too shy lol. Next thing I know the person is coming over & handing me a rose saying their famous line in character. It was Tamaki from Ouran High School Host Club, which is one of my favorite animes and then I was given a rose. I thought that was awesome & I could feel my face turning red as well because it was awesome & something I’m not used to because of having social issues.

Our badge this year
Our badge this year

Overall RetroGameCon is an amazing event in Syracuse NY, will I return next year? You bet your ass!! This year wasn’t so good for me, due to I didn’t even sell half the stuff I brought. However, I did get my business name out there and gave out a ton of business cards. So I may have not sold much at the con, but I did have a blast with seeing cosplay, other artists & just having fun being around stuff that is amazing.

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Bye Bye Cast!!!


So back in September T had fallen at school and broken his arm, boy that’s an experience I do not want to re-live again. Always making sure the arm was covered when he showered, the smell that would come from the cast & how much it hurt when you’d get hit by it. But, of course we’d do it all over again if we had to, but let’s hope we don’t lol.

On November 2, 2016 was an exciting day for T. It was the day his cast was finally coming off, he had it on for about 5 weeks and his bones healed up great!! I personally have never seen a cast be taken off & obviously neither has T, so when it came to time it was pretty awesome. The doctor showed that it wouldn’t hurt, he turned on the machine & put the blade on his hand & showed it didn’t cut, so T was okay with it. It took maybe 2 mins to get the cast to come off. T got all excited that it was off, but said it felt weird & light, mainly because he didn’t have the heavy cast on anymore. Some how he managed to get a corn kernel in his cast, because when the cast came off there was a piece of corn, doctor got a good laugh out of it.

It took about 1-2 days for T to get re-adjusted to not having his cast on, but once he got better he was back to his normal dare devil self. We asked T if he learned his lesson & if he’s planning on doing it again & he said he won’t be doing it ever again because he don’t want another cast.